Does time go faster as we get older? It sure seems like it. There always seems to be less time to ponder your failures and successes, to see friends and family, to tick things off of a to-do list, or to just enjoy the day.
For me, the last little over three have felt like I’ve been trapped in a whirlwind. Now I’m looking at the future, starting today which is my birthday, with new eyes. I’m planning to make sure that I savor the days ahead of me and those around a little more than I have in the past. More importantly, I plan to dote on myself by making sure I’m not letting the lack of mobility at work or in my writing career impact my self-worth. I’ll also stop beating myself up about my futile attempts to have children. I’ll stop letting ever health challenges posed by chronic illness trigger a deep sadness rather than being grateful for how far I’ve come. I can’t promise my attitude will change overnight but I’m working on it.
Also, I’ll do my best to embrace what I can still create in the world, the love I can share, the memories I have yet to make with the time ahead of me rather than focusing on the time that’s slipped away. It’s the only way to get out of this whirlwind.
So, for day 17 of my Christmas sweater countdown I picked a sweater with a giant snow globe on it. I’ve stood tall through a powerful whirlwind, the dust, or in this case sno, has settled, and I’m standing here, raw, real and ready to embrace the time I have left.
(P.s. the last photo is of the shirt that will be underneath the main sweater)
Happy Birthday to me! I love you!